29 Apr Asshats Steal Your Jet Fuel
How to get out of an Abusive Relationship? Awareness, people!
Asshats can squelch your Bad-Assery. You are a Badass. You just know you are. You have at least ten jets that propel you through your badass life.
The problem is, when you date an Asshat, they can drain your jets.
So instead of having all ten of your jets at your disposal, trying to change and control an Asshat can use up the energy from each and every one of those jets.
I’ll offer myself as a case study:
From 1992-1997 I dated and lived with an Asshat I frequently refer to as Mister Cruelly Handsome. During that time I was trying to make a career as an actress in Hollywood. And during that time I booked only two jobs. One national commercial and one guest-starring role on one episode of a television show.
Prior to dating Mister C I’d performed in five music videos, five plays, booked two movies (one where I played the lead), booked roles in four television shows and had a 5-month run in a prestigious theater on the east coast, making me bi-coastal during that time.
My focus shifted from building my career and body of work to managing a relationship I had no control over.
I spent an embarrassing buttload of time stalking Mister C to make sure he wasn’t cheating on me (he still managed to), going to therapy with and without Mister C in order to figure out how to change and control him, going to self-help conferences in the hopes they could help me figure out how to change and control him, hashing over all the details of what Mister C was or wasn’t doing with friends, colleagues and pretty much even innocent passersby in order to figure out how to change and control him.
Because I spent five years with only one or two of my jets at my disposal I got, literally, nowhere.
I didn’t even move closer to my personal goal of marrying and starting a family.
If anything, the more jets I used to move Mister C toward that future with me, the further I travelled away from my heartfelt desire.
When I finally unclenched the fist with which I grasped this toxic relationship and let it go, suddenly all ten of my jets were on fire. Here’s what happened:
- I quit trying to become a professional actress.
- I started writing plays instead and three of them were instantly produced.
- I gained entrance into the exclusive UCLA master’s screenwriting program and finished my degree with a 3.98 GPA.
- I signed with the biggest literary agency in Los Angeles.
- I sold my first screenplay to Warner Brothers and made enough money to permanently quit my day job.
- I landed a succession of other screenwriting jobs for Disney, Fox Family and Lifetime.
- I met and married my husband.
- I became a homeowner with my man.
- I gave birth to two beautiful, beloved daughters.
- In the safe harbor of a loving relationship I continued along my journey of personal discovery and growth with changing myself for the better as my only goal.
And guess what? All of this happened within six years. Just one year longer than my dead-end, toxic relationship with Mister C.
So I have a task for you. I want you to make two lists.
LIST ONE: I want you to write down every. single. thing. you do in order to change or control your toxic partner.
Write down everything, how much time to you spend working out to be good enough for him? How much of your hard earned money do you spend to impress her? How many hours a day do you think and or talk about him? As well as how many hours you spend stalking her or going to couples’ counseling with no results.
Don’t leave anything out!
LIST TWO: I want you to make a list of all of things you could accomplish if you weren’t doing all that stuff in list one.
This includes things you would do to achieve your business, personal and spiritual goals.
Examples: Is there a book you’ve been meaning to write. A trip you’ve been meaning to take? A class you’ve wanted to enroll in? A job search you’d like to make? Friends and family you’d like to see more of or have a better relationship with?
Once you’ve written everything down I want you to share it with me on my Facebook Fan Page, either on my wall or in a direct message. Or you can leave your responses in the comments below and I will give you my relationship sensei pearls of wisdom, young Grasshoppers.
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“The first step toward change is awareness. The second step is acceptance.” — Nathaniel Branden, psychologist